The last day of 08

This year has been especially fast, or rather i was playing 3/4 of my time. HaHa, definately an eventful year, cuz i picked up a lot of stuff, made loads of memories, have more good frens and of cuz sense a lot more love around. Yes and i spent hell lot of money..

The 1st mth of e year i was still complaining about e hellish attachment life, then i was busy with netball interschools, going out with Wai, playin pool, watchin movies, watching NSL, playing PSP until she left for Vancouver. Ha may to july equipped with netball again and meeting sharon. Had my graduation ceremony, saw my frens entering army.July i started school, bridging course which was quite slack and i tend to go out aft sch, ha but i love that kinna sch life thou ha. Then the actual Sch life started in Aug, was busy with sch, netball, NP just started training meeting Jen cuz she was way too free. Started to club a little more then usual and enjoying it. haha. Comes late sept sec schs havin exam break, i'm have much more free time, met up with jen wy rs more often. October was happening. ahha! A family dinner at long last, Polite games, My 21st bday chalet, Clubbin was fun with jen wy jake cherylx2 eugnene on my actual bday, and ladies night on 12 Nov hah. Then met my some new people . Oh yes camwhoring with my pressie haha. December was especially fast, went for huili's 21 and realised how much i missed her. netball trainings again, Eugene's 21st, meeting my frens,shopping, sharon returing from NZ aft abt 6 mths and then Christmas and now Its new year eve.

All in the blink of an eye.

I love this happening year, where i found a myself a more jubilant person.

NEXT UP!!

My new year resolutions:

-save up-study hard-s... ...n-

-be happy-

-loves-

Everone have a great year ahead. Happy New Year!=)

xmas eve

24/12/08

In the process of growing, some things are no longer that big a think. HaHa who cares abt xmas now its just another Public Holiday with a present to give and collect and yes headaches of what to get.. Well it was still fun with a little gathering and some games ect. Festive seasons are always a time for gambling and this xmas i tried Poker. Ha well with some help at first thou. I cant believe my beginners' luck, have got good hands most of the time which enabled me to pick up e skills faster. Well still manage to won some bucks after deducting what i lost at mahjong and my macdonalds breakfast!!! Kinna cool ha. Jen been asking me to play Poker, but she's a lousy teacher la, din get to learn from her.!!!! ( HEH!!)

However, there's something extra abt this Christmas, some may know. Well what can i say, i do feel like a changed person at times. So different that i do suspect about myself .There are still loads of things i am not exactly use to and sure of. Even simple daily gestures became alittle strange. I guess it still requires a while hopefully i'm not back to square one by then haha..

Going to play Poker again tonight haha, hope luck is with me. Smile!!! =)

a post

Days past in the blink of an eye, recently everyone seems busy well myself too. Haven been hanging out much with my usuals. People seems to have drifted a little... its christmas soon, i haven got any presents for anyone and kinna feeling broke already. This christmas feels a little different, wonder is it just me haha or maybe others too. Totally no idea of wad to do and where to go ha, well do have a boring gathering of exchange gifts which i think 99% will turn out to be chocolates. Not too keen to go haha. I still miss those lame christmas countdown stuck in a taxi.

CNY is coming soon too, headache to think of clothes to get not only for myself my bro n cousin too. Dunno why its my job but i just cant find time to bring them out.

This is a tight week and i hate it.

Diamondfied 21st. -Sexy Diamond

Slowly slowly all of us starts turning 21, a hell lotta new things in our life but some love, some friends,some moments are always there to stay. It does not matter where we are.

now looking back, those times we shared are really like magic

Loads of laughters, crys, ups and down.

Secondary sch life will be so dull without u guys.

Din get to celebrate wai's 21st together, kinna miss u suddenly.

Ha huili was telling me u had a bad dream abt us and e phone calls we had.

I really din know i gave that impression man. But sometimes u just call at the wrong time haha

others, i just dunno wad to update u with.

I miss pooling with u, i've improved my skills waiting for u haha!

missing CGL too..

Time really passes damn fast, Its more then half a year since u went canada.

All of us have our own life going on,

sometimes when i pass by some places or did some stuff

memories just come popping up, the good times and dumb stuff we did.

This year was really a big change for all of us.

Going to different Uni's have new people in our lifes,

was it cause of 21 haha.. Big measures of changes man.

Well all and all 'US' still feels like before.

Loves Bee.

The gift for my good fren, man i'm so in love with it.

Oh gosh i'm so emo haha!

assumptions

am i suppose to assume haha

boring..

fickleminded

oss netball camp.

TEAM OSS!!

All it takes. =)

father and mother i love you.

a Belated post.

My family's love speak no words, show no expressions, tell no tales.

Right from my heart i know, when little questions asked,

they cared just not knowing how to express.

When they tried, it meant a great deal even if it seems little.

When worried, she kept to herself, losing sleep while i'm havin fun.

I may not get it right all the time but

In this unspoken way, i love u my Family.

Pls do feel my silent gesture.My bro's act cool face. Feedback says he look too old when wearing this GAP shirt i got him. this was taken after my cousin's wedding which was damn posh. The food so small portion and yet so delicious. Cant get enough. Okays no photos for that sad, Mayb later ba see how ha.

GERMAN FEST

19/10/08

Sis just got back frm Germany then, and din get us anything in particular (ok only Germany Beer), So she intended to treat us to the German Fest Dinner. It cost up to a whopping 200 plus. Well its worth it.

Beer foam! Who got the best shot?

Haha me right!

How can we not take a look at the wonderful food, those delicious sausages and pork knuckle.

Ok we all added a few Kgs after eating this. =XWell the leading star was of cuz the knuckle, how can we not take a photo of it, (after all its meat are gone haha) Even when we look hideous ha.

Finally why this expensive meal was all but worth it.

Two family Photos.

Something that for 9 long years i dun rememeber taking.

Love.

Seven

Seven days,a ton of statements

amazingly i still cant believe it. Was it me, or was it a smth else.

slow baby slow

ratified

the happenings recently, left me stranded in a brand new enviroment.

An unpleasent experience, yet a suprise find.

The unknown factor behind, found me and intrigued me.

Helped me fix the unnoticed part n parcel that i missed and cant retrive.

This feeling that was lost.

This me that i always admired.

i'm seeing modest images of them.

This individualistic life,

and days that kept me filled with my so-called entertainments

just cant colour the dark shaded areas that were meant for smth else.

Can u? at least for now.

Feeling loved may not meant being loved,

wake up when time's up. =)

oversensitivedtomyunnoticedlife

ARG!

I AM FREAKIN LOST IN SCHOOL!

HATE THIS FEELING.

STUPID TEST DATES

FUCKED UP ATTITUDE.

IGNORANT BEHAVIOUR

ME.

mini P

Its like e mini version of puipui and the white bunny. The half face n black line on its body.

However the colours were directly opposite of puipui! COOL BABY

a lil motivation

school can really be a killer,
i'm just not motivated.
knowing e direction and timeframe
yet i'm wasting time figuring out my routes
distracted.
nothing seem to spurs me on
like a living dead

my tire wholesome days,
lazed

a lil motivation welcomed

loops

II

.____.

Meaningful act =)

Heys boys and girls,

Christmas is round the corner, while we all have fun lets share the fun.
Do a part for the children in Cambodia. Donations of stationary and some basic prouducts will make more happy faces appear.
U can visit e website below, donation days are frm 15-24 Nov, location varies, well i know its kinna outta e place but if u are free why not.

http://www.class95.sg/contests/others/charity-cambodia.htm

Birthday Cards.

I received very unique cards this year and i shall make sure this cards are given credit...

From e left,1st one was a loving marriage card haha wondered whose idea it was la!,

2nd one was from my NP netballers super sweet of them to celebrate for me aft their game

3rd one was flown in all e way from canada and giffy was included

4th was handmade by my bff HuiLi.

not forgetting the 5th, also e BIGGEST from my Outram Girls!!!

(scroll down to the close up pics)Haha this is the 5th!

and then e 6th frm miss HE!!!

Gosh i miss u man!!!

Close ups n insides

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♥..!! Yes i saw GiffySweet Loved!!!

And inside the 5th CARD!!

This was a most sentimental card, it was accompanied with an unexpected celebration and a tigger and most importantly it was from the girls i teach from scratch. It just feels different as they have stick thru thick and thin with my coaching career so far.

Especially the sec 3s who will be stepping down next year, whom i learn a lot and have loads of fun time.

Heh and Luckily the ugliest photo was covered la!!! And credit to my bro for passing my ugly photo!

cheers to 21

SEXY 21st

Wow 21 is such a blast!, i had like a weeklong of celebration, Frm preparation to the chalet for 3 day, the countdown party at Arena, a mini family cake session, to Halloween. Thou i cant count Halloween but i still have the feel.

Hey peeps!!! Thanks for coming to Bee's SEXY 21st !!

HaHa, dunno how to start, mayb u can visit my facebook for the photos.!!!

CHALET

I am really grateful to mummy and god dadddy for helping me in making all this possible, the SUPER FRESH PRAWNS yummy and CRUNCHY MID-WINGS , by mummy n god dad, haha.

BIG THANKS to Jen, Ruisong, Wenyang, Isabel, Tommy For helping in preparation of food , loading and unloading to n fro e chalet. Cant imagine myself carrying e stuff or marinating the food on my own. oOo the EGG mayo is damn nice! =P

BIG THANKS also to Huili and Eugene for buying Ice.

THANKS to all of u who have came down and making it so much fun!!!

I LOVED ALL THE PRESENTS THANK YOU PEEPS!!!

HaHa i Loved my Sexy Bee Cake and the Star huili brought!

My SEXY BEE ★ Cake.

COUNTDOWN AT ARENA

Wasted that i din reach my aim of 21 cups of liquior haha, died at 18 inclusive of stealing drinks frm Jen n wenyang haha.

HaHa had done a lot of stupid things i guessed, cant remember much expect the 'HAR KAO', Seriousy, who saw e prawn tail man!! haha

*Jen omg, we saw each other for 8 days continuously...

Y HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BEE Y

to whom?

WAI !!!

Received ur wishing card!! but HELLO NO NAME LOR. My mum thought belong to my sis. SAD =(

And to make things worst Zoom in at the stamp there pls.

It writes ' SUPPORT MENTAL HEALTH'

anyways Thanks !!

♥ & misses. ♥

moody post

gosh i'm moody moody damn moody this few days.

Nothing seems to work right.

Feeling so tired aft waking up.

My chalet is round e corner n i have nothing ready.

MOODY..

Lets hope tml is a better day.

a pang of guilt.

woke up at 8p.m in shock.. with 9 miss calls and some messages. Overslept. Shit. Realised that i sld be coaching at np right now. It was e last trg be4 e competition starts. Answered e 10th call, had to make out e wrds sorry i overslept. Totally irresponsible, felt e disappointment in them. Had to tell them what i want them to practice on and when e call ended i text an apology sms. It was hard, starring blankly and all e things tat occured today came flowing into my still shocked mind.
I have had my piece of fun time throught e night then went to class totally unprepared, fallen asleep e moment i sat down, untill my fren came abt. Went home for a supposed 3 hrs nap but ended up with 6 screwed up big time. It was pointless rushing down to Np cuz they be done by then, din had e chance to make any amendments. To worsern it, all e players were down today with intention to prepare themselves for e games. I seriously dunno how to face them in wed, ashamed of myself not knowing my limits and responsibilities. Where a line sld be drawn somewhere, i thought i was handling well maybe this was a wake up call before all is too late to be realised. Well to say that i still have time dun sound at all convincing but hopefully its time i pick up e pieces and find e path i sld be taking. Stop acting like a kid and acting as my wishes tells.
I guess its not easy to understand how bad it felt, and i'm sorry to say that it felt worst when u guys said u understand. Like a heavy weight lying down on me. When it sounded okay it was totally not, as suggestions were made to improve conditions or reduce e feeling of guilt it seems so simple & easy but i knew deep inside as a matter of fact it was just excuses which i myself cant even acknowledge. But i still wanna say thanks for trying it was at least comforting and it did release me frm blaming myself.
Had a headache frm e lack of slp but i still dun feel like sleeping. Suddenly i just wondered when i think in other's shoes, i may pity and feel connection, try to help reduce it all but how can i possiblily fully know and feel exactly e same feeling.

Sorry for e disappointment

i've learnt a lesson a hard way.

I'm Really sorry, din know of anyway else to amend to this

or any better word to ease.

e beginning of this endless circle.

holidays are really over, i really miss it e moment it ends. My hectic boring life is beginning to appear bit by bit. Obstructing the me i wanna be. I want to Break Free. Its kinna tiring sometimes facing the same problems over work and realising some ugly traits that i actually have. I wonder what have i done to my girls after losing e passion in it. A little scolding at times a lil more irritated got impatient and extremely lazy. Who was this? Yet u want they to be proud of u, nt disappoint u, play well and impress. I detest losing yet nv wholly sure of winning, what did standards of the past put expectations to? There's a max to where they can reach so sld they enjoy or push e limits? It's kinna wearing me off thinking of testing the limits and stressing them out. I'n bored of it too. Achievements are proud moments however they may only be history but yet history that goes unnoticed overtime.

i wan

i am

me

Still i cant see.

heys Just wanna let u know i'm here for u !

Always be always will. Promise!

Chop with a Sting.

happy with money =.)

13OCT2008

So i went out with $32 Cash today. Thats all i have apart frm $24 in 2 separate banks and 3 accounts. SHITTY!

And i watched student priced movie had lunch in sch canteen and not forgetting window shopping. Movie was crap. 'Burn aft readin', But heys burn wad.. it was just a fucked up show with stupid storyline and wtf ending. Well and i din really fullfill e window part. Got a bangle which looked simliar to another e 1 i like at Aldo. Well i guess it looked 90% e same Except Aldo's slighty bigger and MUCH MORE COSTLY. I still believed it was a good buy at $9.90 Rather then $35 frm ALDO. But i landed home with Twelve bucks and a bangle. Hais simply discouraging. =/

Was not in any mood, Okays mayb its not so bad, At least my miserable pay came in just in time to rescue me frm 12 bucks. Well i simply cant imagine it have to last me all e way to my next pay, when i have so much stuff to pay for. And 1st will be e $88, and 2nd wad a time to run out of torture medicine - Glucosamin, my party needs, presents, my daily expenses, the increased bus fares, FOOD and an never ending list.

The usual October.

Okays every year's october just make women of my family grows older. Which means i get very very broke buying gifts for 2 impt person, mummy and sis. And this year esp as i'm goin to turn 21, some partying money just cant be saved. As usual payroll always hits rock bottom for Sept n Oct seem so hard to get by.

After buying pressie for my sis i had barely have much left damn sad and so i came up with an idea for mummy present a red packet and mayb some photos, luckily i saw goddaddy when i went for lunch with my sis n bro. Heh god daddy paid for these, e 2 red wines that mum liked and a sunflower. But it ended up as my gifts to her thou i din pay a cent

Take a closer look in e red packet!

ok it really sucked to be broke.

my vain obsession

If u seen my earlier posts there was once i went msia for seafood. Well i did some shopping there and saw this bag tat i loved, but i din have enough cash back then.

So i went Vivo on sun with sis n mummy and whosh i saw the bag avaliable in spore.

Ha my mum actually comment that 'ain Estee a brand for older Women'. Well i use to have e impression too but my motive was e BAG.

It was actually a purchase with purchase thing. So buy 100 bucks and above and u can get this set for $98 WOW!

So gonna get it... so i bought a mascara and a foundation, which turned out to be a Extremely early bday gift frm my sis. Luckily if not i will be more broke then broke.

But i still have to pay 98 bucks for this: =)

Okays e 1 i loved was on the left but $98 Includes:

• The Make up box i loveD
• a Smaller Make up kit Bag
• 4 Different Sized Brushes
• A Gentle Cleansing Lotion
• A Mini 3.5ml Mascara
• An eyeliner Pencil
• 3 Lipsticks
• 2 Lip Gloss ( Pink & Bronze)
• A Tri colour Blusher Set
• 15 Colours eyeshadow Set

SO WORTH IT RIGHT!!! Ok at least i think so. =3)

Don't Believe !!!

I Shall

SHOW U!!!

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TA DA!

WELL What can i say, ya the bag not exactly erm practical haha but i still love it thou. It took up quite a bit of space but i can make do haha. Happy tat its stationed in my home!!

Yea and it Outshone the mascara and foundation GIFT which cost more.

Lastly it was wednesday night and i'm here blogging. kinna missing something.

Lychee Martini

Heys Its a public Holiday haha so i guessed that nobody will be too late to head to Zouk. When we reached, e Queue was like super Duper long la and some guys just dun know how to queue especially after being HINT NOT TO CUT THE QUEUE. Idiots!! Ok we made it thru anyways but sadly they don't provide free drinks for LADIES NIGHT.

HaHa typical of us, trying to go on fully complimentary night out so this is wad we did!

/Ok 1st have dinner (hungry ha) well dinner is PAID!

We shared this

Prawn and Mushroom Pasta with garlic and Wafu Sauce. Deliciously loved.

/OK Next Up, talking about complimentary haha.

We headed to ARENA for unlimited LYCHEE MARTINI well we got more then we asked for

Cuz they served SEX ON THE BEACH as Well Whahaha LADIES ONLY.

HaHa ok damn aunty la but HELLO its free la, who cares.

That was when we have yet to touch our drinks. Sober and excited.

After having a few cups, Jen says we might be able to hit 10 cups well at first i was kinna reserved like 10 fucking cups haha. When i reach 7 i was totally goin for it already.

Haha so i had 10 cups la.

I Remembered 5 Lychee & 5 SOTB. HaHa and e funny thing is SOTB have a lotta ice and aft 1 cup of it, we think it was kickless so 2nd cup we requested for less ice and 3rd 4th 5th totally ice-less! GIAM BENG HAHAHA. We queued so many times the waiters already know us haha.

Good that they did not laught at us haha.

Haha i just finished this cup of Lychee Martini when jen turn over with WA SO FAST AR LOOK on her face haha.

The Lychees Martinis, Sweet! HaHa The last time we got our Drinks, we even requested for more lychees which we got like 3 lychees each haha.

(I got rejected for more lychees be4 la last time!)

This was already my 10th Cup and Jen's 9th.

By now we're a little gone. But we were already damn high at Arena. The music was good the band was not too bad. Got a wierd uncle dancing i think he secretly train at home la his moves super funny. We hanged ard till near 1 and cabbed to Zouk.

In the cab i realised shit i LOST MY PHONE AGAIN. So we cabbed back to Clark Quay. Luckily the people at Arena picked it up and i retrieved it.The bouncer actually says lucky i was using this phone not some Expensive phone. Well True but kinna sour inside. I think i got more high after that haha. In the cab back to Zouk we Saw a badly smashed up car and Taxi. I was swearing a lot by then and i think i'm gone le haha i suggested to our taxi driver that he should put some blink blink on his car to be spotted. Totally laughing at dunno what.

Ha DAMN LUCKY.

Ok headed back to Phuture and

WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!

The alcohol served its purpose!! DAMN HIGH LA, Ok a little funny spoiler here. We drank a bit too much so we rested outside a while and there's this tissue box NTUC fairprice 1 la. Some 1 who left behind guessed they puked. SO i think i took at least 100 pieces. I have e photo in my hp but i cant upload DUMB :x. Yes u can guess wad we did.

SADLY, if u looked up again at the wonderfully delicious Pasta again yes we wasted food. But we felt so much better aftwards.

Back to Phuture haha it was a BLAST can. still high thats y. 4 a.m felt like 2a.m only but ting ting ting time to go home. I have School today at 12.

and finally thanks to the scarcastic lecturer for reminding me i am Late

and i am definately e one he mentions who 'did assigment for the sake of doing'.

SO TRUE , but thats the way it was.

=)

HEh btw this font colour is my current nail color. Love it haha. And this purple looks like jen's ha